My broken heart...

2010....

2010-01-01T19:18:00.003+08:00

welcome 2010....

I hope for a better year...

less tears, less heart aches, less memories of a broken heart....

more smiles, more laughter, and more pleasures of the heart....

welcome 2010...

....I hope you wont let me down....

happy yet empty

2009-06-14T21:19:00.002+08:00

life is full of happiness, you don't have to look far and wide, you just have to open your eyes so you may see..

laugh out loud, have party all night, be happy, but is the happiness reaching your heart? or it just simply pass and never touches it?

happiness is not just laughing, partying with girls and having lots of sex but with pleasures of the heart and by the hearts pleasures in order to feel true happiness.

am i making sense?

wish me luck...

2009-05-04T22:06:00.003+08:00

well, no more drinking over the top. Footiam said, "Hey, what happen last night seems like fun. If only you don't have too much vodka and know what happened!"

And well, yeah i guess that makes sense...

but i am still clouded with guilt and shame, i am not that kind of guy and i think changing ones view on some things is not easy as it seems.

but i am getting ready to make one more try, and hope i wouldn't be too scared to make a move..

today is Monday and i still have five more days to think it over, hope i wouldn't change my mind.

I plan to go out on Saturday night and stay as late as possible....

whew... this is new and i say a bit harder than i thought.

wish me luck..... i need it!

for me..

2009-04-21T21:55:00.005+08:00

I haven't tasted any alcohol today, I don't know if that's good news or what, but i just cant keep off thinking about what happened last night. Was that some kind of sick joke?

I came home early today trying to ward off that silly incident and remembered i haven't had dinner yet.

I opened my cup board only to find it empty, I really have to go shopping tomorrow or ill end up in another restaurant for my dinner.

I found a few stuff though, they have been in my fridge for a while but i think they are still edible but i just cant think how to make them into a real decent meal.

Its been a while since i cooked my own food and i think its about time i fix one for myself.

Hot dogs, carrots, lettuce, french fries, and a few slices of squid and a few ripe tomatoes. I was lucky to find mayonnaise and decided to toss a salad, i am not good in cooking but i hope it will be enough to satisfy my hunger.

a few dash of salt, pepper, some herbs, mints and other spices and a few minutes later, dinner is served.

It was not very appetizing but it sure does satisfied my hunger, the carrots was tender and crispy and it sure went well with the tomatoes, lettuce and the fries and hot dogs was wonderful.

I only hope i could sleep tonight and not go out again to drink just to sleep.

One night only..

2009-04-20T06:48:00.003+08:00

I don't know what happened last night, I was too drunk to remember, or i guess i choose not to remember .

I was on the bar with my vodka when a young and beautiful lady approached me and is obviously in flirting mode and what was i thinking? I woke up and she was there beside me in my pad, in my bed, and totally naked.

Its monday morning and i have work so i insisted she has to go. This is absolutely some kind of madness, lots of girls have been flirting with me but i choose to ignore them but this time i kind of gave in to her temptation.

And to think, i don't remember her name, or number..

Oh geez, is this what they call a one night stand?

Was i that too naive?

Direction...

2009-04-19T18:42:00.003+08:00

Another week gone and wasted, and another one about to start, but i am still having a hard time coping up with the headache i had from too much drinking vodka last night.

I usually don't have any hangover after drinking but i remember i had different mix of alcohol last night and that should have cause my head to ache.

But that's alright, i had been asleep all day, but the problem is will i be able to sleep tonight..

I am planning to go out again latter tonight but i really don't have any idea where to go..

I think i need to go somewhere else, A place to think and re asses my life.....

Again...

Bottoms up my Friend...

2009-04-16T06:55:00.007+08:00

I'm back into drinking again, and this time there's no such thing as moderation, it's more like drink all you can, drink as fast as you could, the faster you get drunk the faster you sleep.

Don't preach about things alcohol will do to my health, I already know that but i need to forget and the fastest way to forget is to get drunk and sleep soundly as possible.

Yes, I know this is wrong but I am not out of my mind, I have to do this, I need to escape, I need to feel numb, I need to forget.

It is so easy for you to say, "Get a Life", but do you have a guide on how?

I had been lost, and the light that gave me direction simply vanished, do you know how hard and painful that can be?

It would be very easy for you to say "I do", but do you really know? or your just saying that to cheer me up?

My mind is clouded with pain, frustration and anger at the moment, I need time to heal the pain and rearrange my life.

I don't need your criticism, and preaching, I need your guidance and understanding.

Bottoms up my friend...

beginning...

2009-04-08T17:45:00.004+08:00

Life had been very cruel to me, I had been battered with lots of emotional ups and down for as long as i remember. I thought it came to end when i finally met Lulay, unfortunately she was gone.

And here I am, alone, deserted, and feeling neglected again.

I thought i was about to write happy moments to share with you, I thought my blog will be filled with entries full of hope and happiness, but then i spoke to soon, and here i am writing another stuff from my broken heart.

I cannot refrain from crying, my heart just can no longer contain the hurt and loneliness, I just want to cry my heart out, the loss, the pain, and the feeling of loneliness just keep pulling me down to the abyss of darkness, and i am left with this broken dreams, and another broken heart.

Have i been so bad that i am being punished and all those that i love just cannot be with me?

Why have you left me Lulay? why did god take you away from me? He knew i need you, He knew you make me whole again, but why does he keep on punishing me? Have i done great evil that i deserve this?

I wanted to hate GOD, for being so selfish. For taking away everything that i love, but who am i to do that? I am just one of his creation. They say GOD love all that he created but am I an exemption?

OH GOD! Please help me, give me strength to face all the trials you brought upon me. Guide me and please do not release my hand from your grasp, i need you to help me as i journey in this troubled path.

I feel i had been battered to much, i cant take it anymore.

HELP ME, SAVE ME, GUIDE ME, that i will be able to reach another day with the promise of a good sunrise.

refocus..

2009-03-20T22:40:00.003+08:00

I've been drowning my self with work lately. I even ask my office mates to show me how things are done that i might be of help to them.

They think i am just being helpful but they don't know i am just trying to help my self.

I want to tire myself, so tired that if i go home, i will no more have time to think and think of lulay. I want and i need to be asleep as soon i reach my pad.

And i think my strategy is working, and i am gaining more and more friends.

I don't know if what i am doing is good and right, but i need to refocus my attention.

I don't want to be in pain again. I need to move on, but as of the moment i need to reinforce my heart by tiring my body and mind, so it will just be numb and feel no more emotions.

I know this will pass. This is what Lulay wants, for me to stand whenever i fall.

Its hard but i have to do it...

I love you Lulay, wherever you are, watch and guide me...

...

2009-03-19T06:55:00.001+08:00

Why do heart's always remember and forgot to forget?

I was wondering why my heart seem to remember everything? Even the smallest and simplest detail of a certain event is so vivid that everything looks and feel like it just happened yesterday.

Looks like my heart was never taught how to forget and was only taught to remember.

My Angel..

2009-02-28T18:21:00.003+08:00

I just lost an Angel. I want to talk to her and ask why she has to leave, but i don't know how, I have so many questions but i know all these will remain unanswered.

I just hope she is happy wherever she may be... I hope she is waiting for me, ...

I just lost an angel but i know that same angel is watching over me...

Goodbye Lulay, My bestfriend.....

2009-02-07T18:26:00.003+08:00

I found someone whom i considered best friend, in times of pain and loneliness she had been my constant company, she may have not feel the pain, but i know she truly understand it, and that's why i loved her so much, a friend, an older sister, and sometimes a mother .

Unfortunately the friendship is short lived, she left me again, and her loss left me more pain and despair.

I don't understand why she have to go, and i don't understand why so soon, have i done something wrong and God is punishing me? Am i too bad that people i love and care have to leave me?

With her assistance, care and love, i felt my heart wounds slowly healing and the pain slowly fading away.

But now with her loss i am again lost, feeling empty and even more forsaken.

She will be cremated tomorrow. I want to accept the fact that she is gone and we will never meet again in this life but my heart just don't want to accept it.

I want to dedicate this note to my best friend "Lulay". Wherever you are, you will always be in my heart and mind. I love you friend, and i miss you so much and i will always miss you.

Her death is too big for me to handle, she was the only friend i got, but this time i am stronger, i know that because that is what she always tells me and that's what she wants me to be. I don't know how to continue life without her guidance and love, but i will find a way, she had been my inspiration and even she left me, her star will always shine for me, FOREVER!

Goodbye and thank you friend, till we meet again...

on remembering..

2009-01-20T21:29:00.002+08:00

2008 is now just a memory, weather it be good or bad everything is now just a parcel of our life, a part that completes the cycle of good and bad and a memory that will last forever.

Every year we are given a blank paper, and as the year progresses we write our life through our experiences in it, some will be written in pure black ink and will be remembered forever and others will be forgotten and will just be a blotch of ink in our paper.

2008 is one of the best year in my life. Though occasional thunderstorm came i remained rooted and now that the year has ended, to reminisce and enjoy the lessons we learned is the best way to remember and thank the year that has been.

I was once an ordinary boy who live in the memories of the past. Who think that these memories will always make me happy, but then i realized i was living in the past for too long, and these memories do more damage then help me. The time has come for me to stand and continue my journey and leave the past behind.

The confrontation of the past and the present is still a big battle for me, there are still times when i open my eyes in the middle of the night and wonder where i am.

I know i am still trapped in the middle of a crossroad one leading to the past and the other to the present. I know i have to make a step and decide, but then the big realization to make a step is already a big step for me, and i thank 2008 has finally come to tell me "Hey, you better start another journey or your journey ends here".

To "relive" the memory of the past is not an option but to make another memory that would finally fill in the gap made by lingering and living too long with these memories.

2009 is here to stay, and i hope as i am handed another leaf of paper to write another parcel of my life, i hope the journey will be something i will cherish and remember forever not because i have a "broken heart" but because my heart finally starts to live again.

A journey to remember that would give me inspiration to strive harder and believe that love will find a way to heal a heart broken to pieces.

For Me...

2008-12-21T22:21:00.004+08:00

I think this one is written for me....

ice cream, alcohol, meaningless hookups: the go-to antidotes for a bad breakup are often about distraction rather than relief. What's more, they tend to injure more than assuage, as if the breakup itself didn't cause enough pain.

10 healthy ways to deal with getting dumped that don't include booze, food or flings:

1. Buy the Dumped! Fun and Games Activity Book, which offers such whimsical games as “I Cried to Smell Few (I Tried to Tell You).” Help broken-hearted “Sam” decipher what his friends have been telling him about his now ex-girlfriend in lines such as “Why stink clue fan screw fetter.” Translation: “I think you can do better.”

2. Surround yourself with happy people. Recent research from Harvard and the University of California, San Diego shows happiness is “infectious,” so take up with a group of friends or organization that you know is high on life.

3. Log on to justbeendumped.wordpress.com and submit your breakup e-mails or IM conversations. The names are changed, so it's an anonymous way to have complete strangers tell you what a jerk he was. Your friends need a break anyway.

4. Listen to these top 10 breakup songs of the year. From Pink to Kanye, these tunes are all about getting back on your feet.

5. Learn boxing. Boxinggyms.com lists location around the country. Get angry—then get ripped.

6. Give your home a makeover. Following feng shui principles can help you clear out the emotional and physical clutter from your previously shared space.

7. Get even without getting a restraining order: practice your frustrations on a voodoo doll instead.

8. Write. Whether on a blog, in a journal or in a letter you may decide never to send, getting the words from brain to paper or screen can improve your mental and physical health.

9. Volunteer for a cause you feel passionate about or to help those whose plight might give you a new perspective on your own. VolunteerMatch can help you find the right place and the right time.

10. Fall in love with a new scent. Learn to associate the smell of a new perfume, candle, flower or detergent—even—with your new, improved and single self. Take a sniff everytime the breakup blues arise.

Of course, sometimes a glass (ok, or a botttle) of wine, meeting someone new or buying a hot new dress is the just what the doctor ordered. Ultimately, do what feels right to you.

from yahoo news......

Defeated?..

2008-12-13T07:09:00.002+08:00

I know life is a gift from a supreme being. We are here for a reason and a purpose that we need to find and understand.

We are soldiers sent on a mission but the mission is highly classified. Communication is unclear for only through prayers that we send back to him our reports and improvements. You may sometimes doubt if your reports are heard and lose trust, but responses to your reports are send back to you but only the heart and soul could feel and understand.

But what will you do if the only thing that receives back the responses of your report is broken?

When during the war your heart was broken, you may be able to fix it and put the pieces together but it could no longer function very well.

That's why we have our soul. To accompany the heart and serves as a battery pack.

And that's what I a trying to do...

Though its not easy and still unclear how, but I am beginning to figure it out.

I hope somehow, my heart would soon recharge and make me feel that long lost rhythm of life..

Thank you to all those that helped me stand when my heart could no longer accept the blows of a human emotions...

my cautious heart...

2008-11-13T20:36:00.002+08:00

The emptiness in my heart is growing faster and heavier. I don't know how to stop it and i don't know if it will end.

I think i tried all things to make it stop and live again, unfortunately the emptiness is slowly drowning me.

The past few months was great. I learned to go out and had some party. I even smiled and laughed my heart out, but then it stopped living again.

I remember my heart beating fast for the first time in so many years. The excitement and thrill was tremendous that i thought it will stay that way, but then here i am alone and feeling miserable again.

I am feeling lost and empty. I feel as if there's no more hope...

For the past weeks i tried partying again, but the music, the wine and the company do not offer the same excitement, as if the glaze of the melted sugar coating the party was lost and the sugar itself lost its sweet taste.

I tried doing my favorite past time, driving along the country road, but the sight that amazes me no longer make me sigh with relief and fill me with compassion.

As though i just got tired of everything and the climb to the summit is no longer rewarding.

As if my heart is saying "I've seen that!", "I'm tired and I'm bored"...

As if the question "What now?" is hanging in the air around me....

I think i need help...

I...

2008-11-07T20:30:00.002+08:00

I thought i had my heart fixed! I thought everything is healed, but why cant i feel my heart beat again?

I had been hurt and lived through it for a very long time, and i thought i am ready to live and love again, but i don't know whats wrong or whats not right. Have i lived alone for so long that my heart was accustomed to being alone?

How many nights i wished i had someone in my arms to hold, to care and to love, but it seems my heart is no longer capable of loving.

I looked and take a second look on everyone but they just don't make a spark that could ignite the fire in my heart.

Am i just rushing things or is this my punishment in imprisoning my heart in long lost love?

I am again in the verge of collapsing, of being lost and in despair...

I thought i had all planed and i know where i am going but then i don't know....

I smiled and laughed and i thought my heart smiled and laughed with me...

I am not getting any younger but i don't want to fail in love again...

Is my heart just cautious?

or my heart is dead?

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I hope someone will come soon and save it...

Guy Rules....

2008-11-01T10:02:00.000+08:00

1. Any man who brings a camera to a bachelor party may be legally killed and eaten by his fellow partygoers.

2. Under no circumstances may two men share an umbrella.

3. It is ok for a man to cry under the following circumstances:

a) The moment Angelina Jolie starts unbuttoning her blouse
b) After wrecking your boss' Ferrari
c) When your date is using her teeth

4. Unless he murdered someone in your family, you must bail a friend out of jail within 12 hours.

5. If you've known a guy for more than 24 hours, his sister is off limits forever, unless you actually marry her.

6. The minimum amount of time you have to wait for a guy who's running late is 5 minutes. Maximum waiting time is 6 minutes

7. Bitching about the brand of free beer in a buddy's fridge is forbidden. Gripe at will if the temperature is unsuitable.

8. No man shall ever be required to buy a birthday present for another man. (In fact, even remembering your buddy's birthday is strictly optional.)

9. When stumbling upon other guys watching a sporting event, you may always ask the score of the game in progress, but you may never ask who's playing.

10 You may flatulate in front of a woman only after you have brought her to climax. If you trap her head under the covers for the purpose of flatulent entertainment, she's officially your girlfriend.

11. It is permissible to quaff a fruity chick drink only when you're sunning on a tropical beach... and it's delivered by a topless supermodel... and it's free.

12. Friends don't let friends wear Speedos. Ever. Issue closed.

13. If a man's zipper is down, that's his problem --- you didn't see nothin'.

14. Women who claim the "love to watch sports" must be treated as spies until they demonstrate knowledge of the game and the ability to pick a buffalo wing clean.

15. You must offer heartfelt and public condolences over the death of a girlfriend's cat, even if it was you who secretly set it on fire and threw it into a ceiling fan.

16. If you complement a guy on his six-pack, you'd better be talking about his choice of beer.

17. Phrases that may not be uttered to another man while lifting weights:

a) Yeah, Baby, Push it!
b) C'mon, give me one more! Harder!
c) Another set and we can hit the showers!
d) Nice Ass, are you a Sagittarius?

18. Never talk to a man in a bathroom unless you are on equal footing: both urinating, both waiting in line, etc. For all other situations, an almost imperceptible nod is all the conversation you need.

19. Never allow a conversation with a woman to go on longer than you are able to have sex with her. Keep a stopwatch by the phone, hang up if necessary.

20. When a buddy is trying to hook up, you may sabotage him only in a manner that gives you no chance of hooking up either.

LIFE...

2008-10-30T21:36:00.001+08:00

hmmmm...

2008-10-23T20:54:00.002+08:00

well, I think i am finally back in the blogger's world, the reports and meetings finally subsided and the new branch of our business is up and running, and i am very ready to accept a more peaceful and relax life. Just me and my computer and an office just me updating my blog haha.

How funny when things happen, everything just pour out, like a heavy rain and you just don't know where to go just not to get wet and feel bad about it.

But sometimes the more you hide and fell sorry about the rain the more you become alone and lonely.

But when you start facing and learning to have fun in the rain that you would be more productive, and more happy about it.

The rain may make us wet and drain in rain water, but water is a source of life.

Next time if rain come pouring again, why don't you try and take a splash? enjoy it and learn to love it, because rain is a part of our life, if we see the rain as an enemy, now i think is the right time to make it an ally.

wow... did i make sense? hehehe

Just looking back...

2008-10-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

I hated numbers as a student. I sometimes fell asleep in classes that dealt with numbers, well, okey I always sleep and skip my mathematics class. I am confused with the long solutions they present in every mathematical problem. I don't know why the solution have to be very long and confusing. And i don't have any interest in them.

I love stories and poems so i took Literature as a major, and i did well. Unfortunately fate played its trick and i was suddenly enveloped in a job that does not only include numbers but live with numbers.

I detest the job and plan on quitting, but then an angel just made me love numbers, made me understand and use them in my daily life. Well sometimes if you're in love, There's nothing you can do for the one that you love, and wella! Here I am numbers all around me, long solutions for a very simple mathematical problem and a mathematical problem that sometimes trick and treat you!

I learned to love the job and i really cared and love it and was rewarded! Unfortunately the angel who taught me love what i am doing took its flight and never came back in my arms.

I still remember her sometimes but the fellings no longer hurts. I remember the girl but i dont remember the feelings anymore hehe.

I am just very thankful she helped me love numbers.

I dont know why i am writting this maybe just to show my gratitude for her efforts and her efforts was not put to waste.

I was slumped for a long time for her lost but now i am ready to face her and say thank you without any hurt feelings in my heart.

hmmmm....

2008-10-09T22:27:00.003+08:00

I had been very busy for the last few days. Meetings, reports and deadlines seemed to have all dumped in my table and my life was just in complete chaos.

Wheew! what a week, I really have to remember this month and i hope it will never happen again.

Now at least the rush finally subsided and i hope the tranquil life i had before will now once more handed to me hehehe.

I really want to forget how many aspirin i took just to ease the pain of headache and to finally rest my eyes that only had an hour or so to rest for the past week and to finally rest my mind from the worries of the accounting world.

Numbers, debit, and credit is starting to haunt me and follow me even in my dreams.... And more formulas, and variances are trying to ruin my life.

But then they're just part of my job, I choose and love this job so i have to enjoy all the nightmares and headaches that goes with it hehe.

Wish me luck, I need it ....

And hopefully to have more time with my blog, seemed like my blog is becoming more like a xerox machine haha..

some rules..

2008-09-28T08:00:00.001+08:00

Rules For Men

1. The Female always makes The Rules.

2. The Rules are subject to change at any time without prior notification.

3. No Male can possibly know all The Rules.

4. If the Female suspects the Male knows all The Rules, she must immediately change some or all of The Rules.

5. The Female is never wrong.

6. (If the Female is wrong, it is because of a flagrant misunderstanding which was a direct result of something the Male did or said wrong.)

7. (If Rule 6 applies, the Male must apologize immediately for causing the misunderstanding.)

8. The Female can change her mind at any given point in time.

9. The Male must never change his mind without express written consent from the Female.

10. The Female has every right to be angry or upset at any time.

11. The Male must remain calm at all times, unless the Female Wants him to be angry or upset.

12. The Female must under no circumstances let the Male know whether or not she wants him to be angry or upset.

13. The Male is expected to mind read at all times.

14. The Male who doesn't abide by The Rules, can't take the heat, lacks a backbone, and is a wimp.

15. Any attempt to document The Rules could result in bodily harm.

16. At no time can the Male make such comments as "Insignificant" and "Is that all?" when the Female is complaining.

17. If the Female has PMS, all The Rules are null and void!

and that is amazing hahaha!!

Life Before the Computer

2008-09-27T23:15:00.002+08:00

An application was for employment
A program was a TV show
A cursor used profanity
A keyboard was a piano!

Memory was something that you lost with age
A CD was a bank account
And if you had a 3 � inch floppy
You hoped nobody found out!

Compress was something you did to garbage
Not something you did to a file
And if you unzipped anything in public
You'd be in jail for awhile!

Log on was adding wood to a fire
Hard drive was a long trip on the road
A mouse pad was where a mouse lived
And a backup happened to your commode!

Cut - you did with a pocket knife
Paste you did with glue
A web was a spider's home
And a virus was the flu!

I guess I'll stick to my pad and paper
And the memory in my head
I hear nobody's been killed in a computer crash
But when it happens they wish they were dead!

How to hire people

2008-09-25T07:29:00.003+08:00

Put about 100 bricks in no particular order in a closed room with an open window. Then send 2 or 3 candidates in the room and close the door. Leave them alone and come back after 6 hours and then analyze the situation.

If they are counting the bricks ... Put them in the accounts department.

If they are recounting them. Put them in auditing.

If they have messed up the whole place with the bricks. Put them in engineering.

If they are arranging the bricks in some strange order. Put them in planning.

If they are throwing the bricks at each other. Put them in operations.

If they are sleeping. Put them in reception

If they have broken the bricks into pieces. Put them in information technology.

If they are sitting idle. Put them in human resources.

If they say they have tried different combination's, yet not a brick has been moved. Put them in sales.

If they have already left for the day. Put them in marketing.

If they are staring out of the window. Put them on strategic planning. And then last but not least.

If they are talking to each other and not a single brick has been moved. Congratulate them and put them in top management!

A new word meaning...

2008-09-17T15:11:00.003+08:00

ADULT:A person who has stopped growing at both ends and is now growing in the middle.

BEAUTY PARLOR:A place where women curl up and dye.

CANNIBAL:Someone who is fed up with people.

CHICKENS:The only animals you eat before they are born and after they are dead.

COMMITTEE:A body that keeps minutes and wastes hours.

DUST: Mud with the juice squeezed out.

EGOTIST: Someone who is usually me-deep in conversation.

HANDKERCHIEF:Cold Storage.

INFLATION: Cutting money in half without damaging the paper.

MOSQUITO:An insect that makes you like flies better.

RAISIN:Grape with a sunburn.

SECRET:Something you tell to one person at a time.

SKELETON:A bunch of bones with the person scraped off.

TOOTHACHE:The pain that drives you to extraction.

TOMORROW: One of the greatest labor saving devices of today.

YAWN:An honest opinion openly expressed.

WRINKLES:Something other people have, similar to my character lines

Pronouncing English...

2008-09-16T21:28:00.002+08:00

Pronouncing English...

Dearest creature in creation,
Study English pronunciation.
I will teach you in my verse
Sounds like corpse, corps, horse, and worse.
I will keep you, Suzy, busy,
Make your head with heat grow dizzy.
Tear in eye, your dress will tear.
So shall I! Oh hear my prayer.

Just compare heart, beard, and heard,
Dies and diet, lord and word,
Sword and sward, retain and Britain.
(Mind the latter, how it's written.)
Now I surely will not plague you
With such words as plaque and ague.
But be careful how you speak:
Say break and steak, but bleak and streak;
Cloven, oven, how and low,
Script, receipt, show, poem, and toe.

Hear me say, devoid of trickery,
Daughter, laughter, and Terpsichore,
Typhoid, measles, topsails, aisles,
Exiles, similes, and reviles;
Scholar, vicar, and cigar,
Solar, mica, war and far;
One, anemone, Balmoral,
Kitchen, lichen, laundry, laurel;
Gertrude, German, wind and mind,
Scene, Melpomene, mankind.

Billet does not rhyme with ballet,
Bouquet, wallet, mallet, chalet.
Blood and flood are not like food,
Nor is mould like should and would.
Viscous, viscount, load and broad,
Toward, to forward, to reward.
And your pronunciation's OK
When you correctly say croquet,
Rounded, wounded, grieve and sieve,
Friend and fiend, alive and live.

Ivy, privy, famous; clamour
And enamour rhyme with hammer.
River, rival, tomb, bomb, comb,
Doll and roll and some and home.
Stranger does not rhyme with anger,
Neither does devour with clangour.
Souls but foul, haunt but aunt,
Font, front, wont, want, grand, and grant,
Shoes, goes, does. Now first say finger,
And then singer, ginger, linger,
Real, zeal, mauve, gauze, gouge and gauge,
Marriage, foliage, mirage, and age.

Query does not rhyme with very,
Nor does fury sound like bury.
Dost, lost, post and doth, cloth, loth.
Job, nob, bosom, transom, oath.
Though the differences seem little,
We say actual but victual.
Refer does not rhyme with deafer.
Foeffer does, and zephyr, heifer.
Mint, pint, senate and sedate;
Dull, bull, and George ate late.
Scenic, Arabic, Pacific,
Science, conscience, scientific.

Liberty, library, heave and heaven,
Rachel, ache, moustache, eleven.
We say hallowed, but allowed,
People, leopard, towed, but vowed.
Mark the differences, moreover,
Between mover, cover, clover;
Leeches, breeches, wise, precise,
Chalice, but police and lice;
Camel, constable, unstable,
Principle, disciple, label.

Petal, panel, and canal,
Wait, surprise, plait, promise, pal.
Worm and storm, chaise, chaos, chair,
Senator, spectator, mayor.
Tour, but our and succour, four.
Gas, alas, and Arkansas.
Sea, idea, Korea, area,
Psalm, Maria, but malaria.
Youth, south, southern, cleanse and clean.
Doctrine, turpentine, marine.

Compare alien with Italian,
Dandelion and battalion.
Sally with ally, yea, ye,
Eye, I, ay, aye, whey, and key.
Say aver, but ever, fever,
Neither, leisure, skein, deceiver.
Heron, granary, canary.
Crevice and device and aerie.

Face, but preface, not efface.
Phlegm, phlegmatic, ass, glass, bass.
Large, but target, gin, give, verging,
Ought, out, joust and scour, scourging.
Ear, but earn and wear and tear
Do not rhyme with here but ere.
Seven is right, but so is even,
Hyphen, roughen, nephew Stephen,
Monkey, donkey, Turk and jerk,
Ask, grasp, wasp, and cork and work.

Pronunciation -- think of Psyche!
Is a paling stout and spikey?
Won't it make you lose your wits,
Writing groats and saying grits?
It's a dark abyss or tunnel:
Strewn with stones, stowed, solace, gunwale,
Islington and Isle of Wight,
Housewife, verdict and indict.

Finally, which rhymes with enough --
Though, through, plough, or dough, or cough?
Hiccough has the sound of cup.
My advice is to give up!!!

An old occupation

2008-09-16T21:15:00.002+08:00

What happens when people of different occupations get old.

- Old accountants never die, they just lose their balance.

- Old actors never die, they just drop apart.

- Old archers never die, they just bow and quiver.

- Old architects never die, they just lose their structures.

- Old bankers never die, they just lose interest.

- Old basketball players never die, they just go on dribbling.

- Old beekeepers never die, they just buzz off.

- Old bookkeepers never die, they just lose their figures.

- Old bosses never die, much as you want them to.

- Old cashiers never die, they just check out.

- Old chauffeurs never die, they just lose their drive.

- Old chemists never die, they just fail to react.

- Old cleaning people never die, they just kick the bucket.

- Old cooks never die, they just get deranged.

- Old daredevils never die, they just get discouraged.

- Old deans never die, they just lose their faculties.

- Old doctors never die, they just lose their patience.

- Old electricians never die, they just lose contact.

- Old farmers never die, they just go to seed.

- Old garagemen never die, they just retire.

- Old hackers never die, they just go to bits.

Caught Sleeping At Your Desk?

2008-09-10T22:16:00.005+08:00

Just a few tips when you are caught sleeping in your desk...

Just say any of the following:

1. In Jesus name, Amen.

2. Dang! Why did you interrupt me? I had almost figured out a solution to our biggest problem.

3. I was doing a highly specific Yoga exercise to relieve work-related stress.

4. I was testing my keyboard for drool resistance.

5. I wasn't sleeping! I was meditating on the mission statement and envisioning a new paradigm.

6. Someone must have put decaf in the wrong pot.

7. They told me at the blood bank this might happen.

8. Whew! Guess I left the top off the White-Out. You probably got here just in time!

helpful? I hope ... hehehe

Career Lessons

2008-09-10T22:08:00.004+08:00

simple and worth remembering quotes for you....

1. A pat on the back is only a few centimeters from a kick in the butt.

2. After any salary raise, you will have less money at the end of the month than you did before.

3. Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons, because you are crunchy and taste good with ketchup.

4. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.

5. Eat one live toad the first thing in the morning and nothing worse will happen to you the rest of the day.

6. Following the rules will not get the job done.

7. Never argue with idiots. They drag you down to their level, then beat you with experience.

8. On the keyboard of life, always keep one finger on the escape key.

9. When you don't know what to do, walk fast and look worried.

helpful?.. haha

Tagalog Na Tunay

2008-09-08T20:35:00.002+08:00

A young, good-looking representative from Laguna sponsored a bill recommending Filipino language be used in all levels of accounting firms and banking institutions. The Solon claimed it will provide a better understanding of the business transactions for those who are inexperienced and non-English speaking citizens.

The bill received unanimous approval from the House and was presented to the President for signature to become the law of the land. But in spite of the overwhelming pressure from the members of Congress, President Gloria Arroyo vetoed the bill.

Why?

She found out that when the English "business" words are translated in Tagalog, they sound very malicious and are "nakaka-hiya at nakaka-kilabot! "

Here are a few sample words - English to Tagalog

Asset - Ari

Fixed Asset - Nakatirik na ari

Liquid Asset - Basang ari

Solid Asset - Matigas na ari

Owned Asset - Sariling pag-aari

Other Asset - Ari ng iba

False Asset - Ari-ari-an

Miscellaneous Asset - Iba-ibang klaseng ari

Asset Write off - Pinutol na pagaari

Depreciation of Asset - Laspag na pag-aari

Fully Depreciated Asset - Laspag na laspag na pag-aari

Earning asset - Tumutubong pag-aari

Working Asset - Ganado pa ang ari

Non-earning Asset - Baldado na ang ari

Erroneous Entry - Mali ang pagkaka-pasok

Double Entry - Dalawang beses ipinasok

Multiple Entry - Labas pasok nang labas pasok

Correcting Entry - Itinama ang pagpasok

Reversing Entry - Baligtad ang pagkakapasok

Dead Asset - Patay na ang ARI

hahaha....

A very early christmas post...

2008-09-07T22:31:00.004+08:00

The celebration of Christmas in the Philippines officially begins on the 16th of December and ends on the first Sunday of January which is the Feast of the Epiphany (The Three Kings), but as early as September Christmas songs and carols could already be heard from different radio stations. It is quite different from the other countries of the world, it is the longest of the Philippine festivities stretching for over 3 weeks. This makes the Filipino Christmas celebration one of the longest Christmas season in the world. A rich tradition which dates back to the Spanish period.

Christmas or "Pasko" is the most awaited celebration and happiest event in the Philippines. This is also the time of the year when family get together, especially when family members from overseas come home with lots of "pasalubong" gifts. exchanging gifts and the family feast highligh the most loved celebration.

What makes the Filipino Christmas unique? Filipinos have a lot of Christmas tradition which makes us different from the other. Here are some of them:

Parol - Filipino Christmas Lantern
As early as November, Filipinos houses offices, schools, shoppingmalls and even streets are adorned with these star-shaped multicolored lanterns.

Filipino Christmas Tradition - Simbang Gabi
"Simbang Gabi" a Filipino Christmas tradition, it is is a series of nine (9) dawn masses, the mass starts as early as 4:00 a.m. It begins on December 16 and ends on the midnight of the 24th of December.

Christmas Caroling in the Philippines
Once the "Simbang Gabi" starts, children like to form groups and enjoy hopping from one house to another every night singing Jingle Bells, Silent Night and traditional Filipino Christmas songs.

Monito Monita - Exchange Gifts
Christmas is the season of gift giving. In keeping with the tradition of giving, Filipinos have their own version of exchanging gifts or Kris Kringle, it is called Monito - Monita

Christmas Tree

Christmas is not complete without Christmas tree. Since pine trees grows only in a few places in the Philippines, not everybody can afford to have a fresh Christmas tree. Filipinos have created unique and original Christmas tree using different kinds oflocal materials, from recycled materials to a more exqusite form of art.

Giant, well lighted and decorated trees are a sight to behold in the city street, malls, parks and office building facades. Some big companies put their Christmas display with a different theme every year, and become a very popular attraction during the Christmas season.

Just like anywhere in the world Christmas tree is not complete without the gifts beneath and around the tree with eager children waiting for their gifts to be open on Christmas morning.

Noche Buena

In the Philippines the much-anticipated Noche Buena - a traditional Christmas Eve feast is eaten after the midnight mass, usually Filipinos attend the Midnight Mass and then return home for a family feast called Noche Nuena,

Some family who don't go to church for some reasons,dine together around 12 midnight on traditional Noche Buena fare, but this varies from family to family.

Noche Buena is a very special occasion for Filipinos, they used their best china and silver ware and cooked their best recipe. Food that are usually serve depends on the specialty of the family but there is always something special serve. The most popular are morcon, embutido, relyenong bangus, lumpia, pansit, and for those who can afford the "Lechon ( roasted pig)

There is always ham on the table but usually not eaten right away, it waits until morning when sliced and fried for breakfast accompanied with Pan de Americano ( also known as sliced bread).

Suman sa ibos or sumang Pasko ( glutinous rice wrapped in banana leaves or coconut leaves ) served with Halayang Ube and leche flan (egg custard) are the most popular desert.

Noche Buena is a statement of the Filipino Family close ties, It is not only about food, it is a family tradition.

Christmas Day

Christmas Day in The Philippines is primarily a family affair. For those who were not able to attend the Midnight mass, there are masses celebrated during the day and usually in the late afternoon.

Most families with young children usually attend this mass. Children wear their new clothes and shoes to go to mass and after the mass, they visit members of the extended family, notably the elders in order to pay their respect.

This custom has been an age-old tradition in the Philippines called "Pagmamano" this is done by touching one's forehead to the elder's hand saying "Mano Po". The elder then blesses the person who paid respect. "Aguinaldo" can be in the form of a gift or money given after the Pagmamano, most usually to younger children.

Christmas Lunch is is usually a reunion of family members. Well-to-do families tend to prepare grand and glorious feasts Some families choose to cook simple meals, nevertheless still special. Christmas day is a day for children to visit their uncles, aunts, godmothers and godfathers. Usually children are presented with a gift, candy, money or toys. Kids love to count their Aguinaldos as they go to their Christmas round.

In every home that you visit, you will always be offered food to eat because every family have made something especially for this day.

Christmas Eve gathering provides an opportunity for a reunion of immediate and distant family members and good time for a drink of Filipinos' most loved "San Miguel" beer with friends and family.

At the end of the day, Filipino Christmas is about family closeness and everyone wishes good cheer and glad tidings.

New Year celebration in the Philippines
New Year's eve celebration in the Philippines is quite different compared to other countries. Filipinos literally start the year with a bang.

Feast of the Three Kings

Christmas officially ends on the Feast of the Three Kings (Tatlong Hari in Tagalog), also known as the Feast of the Epiphany. The Feast of the Three Kings was traditionally commemorated on Jan. 6 but is now celebrated on the first Sunday after the New Year.

Some children leave their shoes out, so that the Three Kings would leave behind gifts like candy or money inside.

After the Feast of the Three Kings that is when all the Christmas decorations are removed.

more Filipino 101

2008-09-07T21:45:00.003+08:00

1. arya [umarya]
- sugod,banat,salita magsalita,umiksena,tira,tara na
Example: 1. arya-up!{hurry up}

2. amps
- ito ay nagmula sa ekspresyon sa irc kapag sila ay nagagalit o natutuwa.

3. churvahan
- gawain na di maipaliwanag, di masabi o di maipangalan.
[any task, activity or action that is unexplained, undefined or unable to name at the moment]
Example: Bakit ka nakipag-churvahan sa kanya nang wala pa ako?

4. chapa
- cha.pa chah'-pah n
1: pawis na bumabakat sa damit sa may parte ng kilikili

5. gulf club
- kapatiran ng lasenggero [drinkers club, mula sa salitang [gulp!]o lagok o lunok. mga lagok ng lagok ng alak [gulp, gulp, gulp!]
Example: ikaw ! oo ikaw nga, member k b ng gulf club?

6. gulf course
- lugar ng inuman [drinking place]
Example: repapeps kitakits nlang tyo s gulf course!

7. haler
- [hello] na pina-oa, nakuha sa australian pronounciation ng [hello]
Example: haler?? ok k lang?

8.isprikitik
1 - libag na namumuo sa strap o bracelet ng relo.
Example: Ambaho ng isprikitik ng Tag Heuer mo!

9. jerflits
- [thief; to steal]
Example: Examples: (1)Mag-ingat ka sa taong yan. Jerflits yan. (Be careful of that person. he/she is a thief)
(2)Itago mo ang cellphone mo. Baka ma-jerflits yan. (Take care of your cellphone. It might get stolen)
Word origin: Formulated by some Information Technology students at UST during mid-2003.

10. jogols
- mas malala pa sa jologs
Example: Kim: Tingnan mo naman yang boyfriend ni K, ang jogols!!!

11. hamster
- hampaslupang monster, halimaw.
Example: ang cute2x ni ________ mukhang Hamster.

12. hatid sundot
- [picking up someone then have sex after] often used in reference to ones girlfriend
Example: hatid sundot si apple kay johnny

I wonder how these words evolve.... hahaha

New Filipino 101

2008-09-07T18:40:00.003+08:00

These are the words that are so unique and loaded in meaning that they will never find a direct translation in the English language. Forget traditional dictionaries. Keep this.

1. *Achuchu* (A-chu-chu).
This refers to the pointless insincerities being said during long, involved conversations about nothing at all.

2. *Ano* (A-noh).
The all-around, all-purpose word for everything.

(1) Pronoun in interrogation: Ano? (What)
(2) Noun: Where is your ano? (Where is your father/mother/dead-uncle's-second-cousin)
(3) Verb: Anuhin this. (Paint/kill/maim/castrate this.)
(4) Adjective: This is so ano. (This is so pretty/big/astounding.)
(5) Interjection: Ano! (What the hell!)
(6) Substitute for genitalia : Did you ano your ano?

The use of ano is quite dangerous for the untrained ear, and must be put into the proper setting. "Honey, the ano is too long, we have to cut it," must be accompanied by the proper understanding of the context, as results may be critical to a couple's future.

3. *Booba* (boo-bah).
A female blessed with larger than usual mammary glands,which can be used as weapons of mass destruction.

4. *Checheboreche* (Che-che-boh-re-che)
Same as achuchu. It is interesting to ponder on the reason why there are so many words in the Filipino language t! hat beautifully describe meaningless chatter.

5. *Epal* (Eh-pal).
An individual who believes he is God.

6. *Gigil* (gee-gil).
An uncontrollable desire to bite something.

7. *Hipon* (Hee-pon).
Literally "shrimp," whose body is eaten while its head is thrown away, this refers to a female whose body is to die for and whose face looks like it belongs to the dead.

8. *Kikay* (kee-kay).
Refers to individuals who carry a brush, hand wash, moisturizer, lip-gloss and various other facial enhancements in a case (aptly called a kikay kit) inside her bag. Recent inspections of various backpacks have led to the conclusion it is not a purely female trait. This breed cannot resist checking themselves out on mirrors, glass win! dows, bread knives, sidewalk puddles and plastic-covered notebooks.

9. *Kaekekan* (Ka-ek-e-kahn).
Same as achuchu and chechebureche.

10. *Kilig* (keel-leg).
A rush of excitement due to the actions, presence or even mention of he whom you see as the future father of your children.

11. *Laglag-brip* (lag-lag-brip).
The female counterpart of laglag-panti.

12. *Laglag-panti* (lag-lag-pan-tee).
A man so incredibly hot, so heart-stoppingly gorgeous and oozing with masculinity that female underwear (whether worn by males or females) falls to the ground without effort whatsoever.

13. *Indyanero* (In-jan-neh-ro).
An individual who fails to appear at an appointment without prior warning. Not to be confused with individuals who appear according to Filipino time (approximately 10 minutes before the meeting is to end).

14. *Japorms* (Jah-porms).
Describes an individual dressed differently from the usual (typically involves clothes that have been laundered and pant legs of roughly the same length).

15. *Lagot* (Lah-got).
A prophesy of evil things to come.

16. *Para* (Pah-rah)
A term that informs the driver of a jeep to stop and pause (usually in the middle of the road) as the individual speaking intends to leave the vehicle. Dangerous for individuals as drivers seem to believe having one foot in the air is all that is necessary for descent.

17. *Takusa* (Ta-kuh-sa).
Derived from takot sa asawa (afraid of wife), this is a term used to de! scribe the silent (very silent) minority of males married to feminine reincarnations of Hitler.

18. *Torpe* (tore-peh).
A gentleman who is desperately attracted to a female yet by some strange compulsion is reduced to a frozen mound of stuttering male whenever that female is near.

Armed with this list and a smile, you will be sure to make the proper impression not just on your new relations, but on your loved one as well.

Now let's practice:

"Honey, when I first saw you, I made laglag brip, and was almost torpe. When I finally got the nerve to date you, I almost became indyanero, because I didn't think I had the right japorms. When you're around, I'm kilig, when you're not, I get gigil. You may think all this is achuchu, kaekekan, just checheboreche, but in truth, my love, I'm so ano with you."

what do you think? haha

2008-09-06T07:38:00.002+08:00

Stress in the workplace is not a new phenomenon, but it is a greater threat to employee health and well-being than ever before. While technology has made aspects of many jobs easier, it has also added to the anxieties of office life through information overload, heightened pressure for productivity, and a threatening sense of impermanence in the workplace. In 1996, the World Health Organization labeled stress a “worldwide epidemic.” Today, workplace stress is estimated to cost billion a year in poor performance, absenteeism and health costs.

What is workplace stress?

Stress—the responses our bodies and minds have to the demands placed on them—is a normal part of life and a normal part of any job. Without stress, we wouldn’t meet deadlines, strive to hit sales or production targets, or line up new clients. Meeting the demands and challenges of a job is part of what makes work interesting and satisfying, and it’s often what allows people to develop new skills and advance in their careers. In the workplace, we regularly experience stress-causing situations, react to them with heightened tension, then return to a more relaxed state when the crisis, big or small, is resolved. However, problems occur when stress is so overwhelming or constant that the tension never abates and we never get to relax.

What we think of as “job stress” is what happens when:

The challenges and demands of work become excessive.
The pressures of the workplace surpass workers’ abilities to handle them.
Satisfaction becomes frustration and exhaustion.

When stress crosses the line from normal to excessive, it can trigger physical and emotional responses that are harmful to employees and businesses alike. And unfortunately, for many people “stress” has become synonymous with “work.”

just more after

2008-09-06T07:31:00.001+08:00

I always come here if my mind is starting to get numb from the puzzles i always encounter and unlock in accounting, the view just relaxes my mind...

Just After....

2008-09-06T07:24:00.002+08:00

whew! month end always means submission of monthly reports and finally i had beaten the deadline.

I went to the roof top to relax my mid and took some lungful of fresh air...

and took the opportunity for some pix too...

What is sexuality?

2008-09-01T21:24:00.005+08:00

When you think of sexuality, your first thought may be the physical act of sexual intercourse. But sexuality goes beyond engaging in sexual activity.

As a human being, your sexuality is a part of your physical, emotional, intellectual, and social self. It affects how you think of yourself and how you relate to others, as well as how they relate to you, and it is a part of you throughout your entire life.

Since every person is different, it is difficult to define "normal" sexuality or sexual activity. Many factors may influence your sexuality, including your gender, sexual orientation, hormone levels, age, and personal perspectives, such as your views on sex and your religious beliefs and values.

You may have certain definitions of how you think a man or woman should look and behave, and these expectations play a part in your sexuality, too.

It's important to recognize what is normal for you--what makes you feel comfortable and satisfied--and that it may be different from what is normal for someone else.

A "normal" sexual response involves a person experiencing one or more of the following:

DESIRE

Desire is about feeling interested in someone sexually. For example, if a man or woman walked by, you may feel an attraction to that person or begin to imagine that person as a partner. You may think or fantasize about sex or feel frustrated because you aren't sexually satisfied. All of these feelings are about desire.

AROUSAL

Arousal is sexual excitement, which may be caused by touching, stroking, fantasizing, or seeing or hearing sexual sights and sounds. Your heartbeat, pulse, and blood pressure rise. Your breathing may become deeper and heavier. In both men and women, blood flows into the genitals as part of sexual arousal.

ORGASM

A person who reaches a sexual climax has an orgasm. For men and women, this means a rhythmic contraction of the genitals, which causes intense, pleasurable feelings throughout the body. Overall, you may feel satisfaction, pleasure, and gratification.

RESOLUTION

Resolution is when the body calms down and is no longer excited. Your heartbeat, pulse, and blood pressure return to normal, and blood drains from the genital area. Resolution happens rapidly after an orgasm. If a person doesn't have an orgasm, resolution happens eventually but just takes longer.

Sexuality...

2008-08-31T08:38:00.003+08:00

Sexuality basically means where your sexual attractions lie. Who and what you are attracted to. It also defines what turns you off sexually. It is usually something that you do not choose, however you can definitely experiment with things along the way to test what you like and what you do not. You never know until you go.

Gender: all the ways people are (how they talk, speak, act, dress, behave, style themselves, etc.) that we relate to men, women, femininity, or masculinity; people can identify as male, female, neither gender, both gender, trans gender, etc., etc.- it's how they feel inside.

Sex: one's biological and physiological sex, as determined by their chromosomes, hormones, genitals, secondary sex characteristics like body hair, voice, fat distribution, etc..

Sexual orientation: the cumulative object(s) of one's sexual attractions.

Sexual behavior: all the sexual things one does; does NOT have to be in sync or in line with sexual orientation.

Kinsey Scale: scale that measures human sexual orientation from 0 (exclusively heterosexual) to 6 (exclusively homosexual) with gradations in between, based on one's sexual behavior and fantasies, up to that time.

Klein Sexual Orientation Grid: scale that measures human sexual orientation like the Kinsey Scale, but takes into account the past, present, ideal (future), sexual attraction, behavior, sexual fantasies, emotional preference, social preference, and the idea that people's sexuality can change.

Polyamory: the desire, practice, or acceptance of having more than one loving, intimate relationship at a time with the full knowledge and consent of everyone involved.

Monogamy: custom or condition of having only one mate.

Heterosexual: sexually attracted to the opposite sex.

Homosexual: sexually attracted to the same sex.

Bisexual: sexually attracted to both men and women.

Pansexual: sexually attracted to men, women, and transgender and transsexual people.

Omnisexual: often used interchangeably with 'pansexual'; potential sexual attraction to any and all things, sexuality that responds to ideas, concepts, objects, etc., etc..

Pomosexual: the "erotic reality beyond the boundaries of gender, separatism, and essentialist notions of sexual orientation." (pomosexuals do not identify with any essentially-defined sexual label, and it is used in reference to oneself as a protest against such labels.)

Asexual: no sexual attraction to anything (romantic attraction is possible, and though it often isn't, sexual desire may be present, but is directed at nothing; only tactile stimulation results in arousal, nothing mental).

Auto sexual: sexual attraction to oneself, one's own body.

Transsexual: dis concordant gender identity; feeling that one was born in the wrong body. May or may not be rectified with hormones and surgery.

Transgender(ed): having a non-binary gender identity; feeling not like a man or a woman in the way they are typically defined in our society; considering oneself neither genders, both, or a "third gender". They do not change their bodies with hormones or surgery.

Cisgender(ed): a non-trans individual; men who were physiologically male at birth, raised as boys, and who identify as men, and women who were physiologically female at birth, raised as girls, and who identify as women.

Transvestite: dresses in the clothing typically belonging to the opposite sex; may do so in private or public, for sexual arousal or not, from only certain articles of clothing, to full presentation of the opposite sex; they don't want to be the opposite sex full-time, however.

Cross-dresser: another term for 'transvestite', more commonly used and more recent and less medical.

Drag Queen/King: performers who act out exaggerations of gender stereotypes to the opposite sex; drag kings are women who perform exaggerated male characters; drag queens are men who do exaggerated female characters.

Bio Queen/King: performers who act out exaggerations of gender stereotypes to their own sex: bio kings are men who perform exaggerated male characters; bio queens are women do exaggerated female characters.

Hermaphrodite: antiquated term for those born with both sets of genitals or an ambiguous biological sex (obsolete, not used anymore).

Inter sex(ed): correct, modern term for those born with an inter sex condition (there are many possibilities: non-standard chromosomal compositions like XXXY, hormone deficiencies/intolerances, ambiguous genitals, etc., etc..).

Now where do you belong?

Metrosexual!

2008-08-30T18:52:00.004+08:00

In the past the male role was to be a scruffy, hairy, and sweaty; the kind of grease monkey that really was found to be quite attractive by the gals in the 1950s.

However the days of being able to go without shaving for a week are history. These days society demands that we always look fashionable and our best. The term metrosexual was really coined by reality TV shows featuring gay actors who gave a make over and image transformation to straight males.

To be metrosexual does not mean you are homosexual. It simply means you are a well groomed, image conscious straight male, who fancies designer clothing and a day trip to the spa to get a manicure.

learn how to know if you are a metrosexual.

Things You’ll Need:

A mirror
Personal time
Female opinion
Gay opinion

Step1

Look at your wardrobe. A classic sign of being a metrosexual is to be label fanatic. Take a gander at your wardrobe. Are all of your clothes name brand? Do you have lots of hot and new fashions that cost a pretty penny? Are there days that go by where you change several times because you think you don’t look right?

Step2

Take a gander in the mirror. Is your hair flat ironed and well kept? Have you recently shaved and look well groomed overall?

Step3

Check underneath your fingernails. Are your nails fine and manicured? Do you frequently visit a day spa for a facial or body treatment?

Step4

Ask a female for their opinion. Girls have great instinct and can usually spot a metrosexual right away. Your best bet is to get an opinion from a female that you trust.

Step5

Ask any gay friends. Gay men have a total knack for spotting metrosexual males, as they were ones who coined the term in the first place. The best way to find out if you are is to ask any gay friends that you may know.

Step6

Get over it. Being metrosexual is not a bad thing. It means you are well said, well groomed, and well spoken. It means that you are image conscious and fashionably aware. It means that you have a sharp appearance and a lot to offer single women.

Remember metrosexual does not mean gay, they are just men who look good and want to look good, they are just guys who love being clean and well groomed where ever they go.

WARNING: New Virus....

2008-08-25T15:26:00.003+08:00

this is to warn you about the new virus circulating the net, it is very deadly and computer experts have not found any cure or ways to contain it.

My computer had been infected and to my grief and horror.

My mouse was reduced to this....

.....OH MY GOD!!!!

2008-08-25T15:12:00.003+08:00

I had my heart fixed and now i am ready to smile, to accept that life is not just fun but full of miseries and loneliness sometimes.

To be broken and hurt is part of growing up and there's nothing more we can do after that but to cry and feel the pain, but then after feeling the pain stand up once more and accept what life had taught you!

Be strong and be brave. A broken heart is nothing more but a broken heart, it will never heal if you keep on scratching it, but it will mend if you allow it.

There are a thousand and one ways to forget, only sometimes we are just to stubborn to accept and to really begin to forget.

extraordinary watch dogs

2008-08-25T14:51:00.002+08:00

A girl was visiting her blond friend, who had acquired two new dogs, and asked her what their names were.

The blond responded by saying that one was named Rolex and one was named Timex.
Her friend said, 'Whoever heard of someone naming dogs like that?' 'HELLLOOOOOOO......,' answered the blond. 'They're watch dogs!'

"I like the way you are thinking!!!"

2008-08-25T14:34:00.004+08:00

Little Johnny was sitting in class doing math problems when his teacher picked him to answer a question. "Johnny, if there were five birds sitting on a fence and you shot one with your gun, how many would be left ?"
"None.",replied Johnny. "'cause the rest would fly away."
"Well, the answer is four," said the teacher. "But I like the way you are thinking."

Little Johnny said, "I have a question for you now. If there were three women eating ice cream cones in a shop, one licking her cone, the second biting her cone, and the third one sucking her cone, which one is married?"
"Well," said the teacher nervously, "I guess the one sucking the cone?"
"No," said Little Johnny, "the one with the wedding ring on her finger. But I like the way you are thinking."

generation WHAT?

2008-08-24T12:39:00.000+08:00

What terrence means?

2008-08-24T12:15:00.004+08:00

What Terrence Means You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

thanks to normand hehehe!!!

whats the differences?

2008-08-23T07:28:00.000+08:00

Very funny how we see things differently...

This is how you see your house....

This is how your appraiser see your house...

This is how your buyer see your house...

This is how your lender see your house...

This is how your tax assessor see your house.....

Hehehehehehe

Best friends...

2008-08-21T09:34:00.000+08:00

A friend is someone who truly understands you and accepts you despite your shortcomings. Friendship is a rare and precious commodity that should be treasured and cherished.

"One loyal friend is worth ten thousand relatives."

"You can always tell a real friend: when you've made a fool of yourself he doesn't feel you've done a permanent job."

"Chance makes our parents, but choice makes our friends."

"To find a friend one must close one eye -- to keep him, two."

friend!

2008-08-10T07:00:00.000+08:00

today i lost a friend...

messing around!

2008-08-03T07:20:00.000+08:00

the past few days is a total mess, i worry too much of the things i don't have any power to change. I think i have to accept there are things not considered good but we have to accept it because we are not in the position to shout out for a change!

Just stress!

2008-08-01T21:47:00.000+08:00

I am really pissed off and stressed this few days and as result i started asking "what is stress" and started typing it in my search engine and wow, got lots of result as usual haha.

What Is Stress?

Stress is the emotional and physical strain caused by our response to pressure from the outside world. Common stress reactions include tension, irritability, inability to concentrate, and a variety of physical symptoms that include headache and a fast heartbeat.

It's almost impossible to live without some stress. And most of us wouldn't want to, because it gives life some spice and excitement. But if stress gets out of control, it may harm your health, your relationships, and your enjoyment of life.

What Are The Signs Of Stress?

Stress can cause both mental and physical symptoms. The effects of stress are different for different people.

The mental symptoms of stress include:

Tension
Irritability
Inability to concentrate
Feeling excessively tired
Trouble sleeping

The physical symptoms of stress include:

Dry mouth
A pounding heart
Difficulty breathing
Stomach upset
Frequent urination
Sweating palms
Tight muscles that may cause pain and trembling

Ways To Manage Stress

Humor

Many stress-management experts recommend keeping a sense of humor during difficult situations. Laughing releases muscle tension and helps a person maintain perspective.

Activities as simple as watching a funny movie, listening to a tape of a comedian's routine, or sharing time with a humorous friend can provide a psychological lift and relieve stress.

Hobbies

Regular leisure activities are important in reducing stress. Many people benefit from making time for positive leisure pursuits rather than, for example, spending time watching television in the evening (although that, too, can be relaxing to some degree).

Relaxing hobbies include gardening, painting, bicycling, photography, carpentry, collecting, and many others. In order to obtain the most relaxation and enjoyment, the satisfaction should come in doing the hobby, not in the results. An individual who pursues gardening for relaxation may not grow prize-winning vegetables, but they can be eaten. An amateur photographer may not sell photographs, but they can be admired by friends and family.

Meditation

Used for many years in Eastern cultures, meditation is becoming more widely accepted in the U.S. as a relaxation technique. Meditation reduces heart rate, blood pressure, adrenaline levels, and skin temperature.

There are a variety of meditation techniques that share a common goal: to achieve relaxation by clearing the mind of stressful outside interferences. Meditation involves achieving a state of consciousness in which the individual focuses on a single thing, such as a key word, sound, or image.

Meditation techniques rely on quiet surroundings, sitting still, and a repetitive mental pattern. Various techniques are taught in instruction books and through religious and nonreligious organizations.

Biofeedback

Biofeedback provides a way for people to learn to control activities over which they normally have no awareness, such as heart rate and muscle tension. It is considered by many health professionals to be a valuable therapeutic tool for reducing stress. Biofeedback involves no discomfort and no risk.

Biofeedback relies on sensitive electronic equipment. Sensors are placed on the body at various locations to measure skin temperature and muscle activity. The sensors are attached to a monitor that detects fluctuations when a person is anxious and displays signals in the form of beeps or light flashes. By watching the monitor, a person learns to control these stressful responses.

Massage Therapy

Massage is the gentle practice of manipulating the body's tissues in order to soothe and heal. It is one of the most ancient of the healing arts, and more people today are relying on it for natural, drug-free relief from the effects of busy, overstressed lives. Massage can relax the entire body and provide new energy that lingers long after the massage is over.

A number of research studies have shown that massage reduces heart rate, lowers blood pressure, increases blood circulation and lymph flow, relaxes muscles, improves range of motion, and increases the production of endorphins, which are the body's own natural painkillers. There are a number of massage therapy techniques, including Swedish massage and Shiatsu.

Massages can be for the full body or particular areas of the body, such as the back and shoulders. Some people choose to wear some clothing during a massage; others prefer to undress or use a dressing gown. During a massage, the person is warmly covered, and only the part of the body on which the therapist is working is uncovered.

from ehealthMD.com

battlefield?!

2008-07-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

the past few days are really frustrating! Everything is changing but unfortunately for the worst, I think!

I just cant stand it anymore i want to scream from the top of my lungs and just fill the world with my scream to wake them all up from their nightmare!

Is it really their nightmare or mine? I can see all whats going on! I know everything is not right but i just cannot steer the boat to the right track! I am seeing the end but i just cant tell them were doomed!

I don't know what to do, I know i just cant stand here and watch but i cannot open my lips and talk, I wish i could do something but if i do i will be crushed between the stones!

I know i am not making sense, but who does? When you know something is terribly wrong but why would nobody listen!

This sucks but i am lost! I don't know where to start again. I won my battle against my broken heart and now, here comes another battle.

When will this end?

Is this really a place of unending battles?

sana pwede kong sabihin kay boss na!

2008-07-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

Don't you feel like saying this to your boss?!

"Ano?! yan lang iuutos mo pa sa akin?"

"If you really think that its that important,
e di ikaw nalang gumawa!"

"Pwede ba, Busy ako!"

"Di kyan kasama sa job description ko!"

"Do my work over the week end?! Bakit? may overtime pay ba to?"

"Boss makinig ka kaya sa akin?"

"Shut up when I'm talking to you!"

"Ang OA mo, kino-complicate mo ang mga simpleng problems
para lang feeling mo matalino ka!"

"Thank you, boss. We're all refreshed and challenged
by your unique point of view!"

"It sounds English, but i can't understand a word you're saying."

"I'll try being nicer If you'll try being smarter."

"I'm not rude, you're just insignificant!"

"Okey lang umabsent ka, Boss, It does not really make a dent here."

"Uwi na ko, ha? Bahala ka na dito sa opis."

from HEALTHbeat July-August issue

job stress

and if you successfully said this to your boss, your work related stress should be gone by now, and you must be having another job interview!

All in a days work!

2008-07-24T21:30:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt like giving up? The thought of something like "I'm so tired and fed up", the desire to let go is so intense that you just want to scream and scare all the bad energy in you body to leave you?

Work is the source of you're income, of your livelihood but sometimes it could also be the source of your disappointment and discontent, it could also be the source of friendship but you could also find enemy's here.

Work could be stressful, but it could also be fun. Sometimes stress come to you if you are no longer happy of what you are doing, if you keep thinking that you are doing more than what you are paid of and when you think your boss is bias and favors one employee, then weigh your options and come up to a decision.

Negative thoughts are part of the human existence it is a way of balancing the good and bad, it is like a check and balance in accounting, you need to know whats gone and whats to come in order to get the variance.

Work is a place of mixture of people. You could be working side by side with intelligent and talented individuals or sometimes you find yourself entangled with dumbs and morons, but still they are your co workers and you don't have a choice but to work with them, though sometimes the output could be fatal and dangerous and it would be up to your boss to find out how and why the output was a disaster.

Work could also make you a true believer because you are left praying that your boss could see your true output and not only see your co workers making "Sipsip". The co workers you consider dumb and morons are good in doing it, so Beware! They know they could not beat you in a fair competition and so they resort by turning themselves into dogs and become a slave's of whoever is in charge, and so bosses i say Beware!

Intelligent people who uses their intelligence for the good of the group is an employee's dream and co workers who turn themselves into dogs are employee's nightmare.

The cycle of an intelligent co worker, intelligent boss, a dumb and moron co worker, and a dumb and moron boss is inevitable, it is like a trap, once your in you can never get out, and so i say once again Beware!

This is just an observation and my personal thoughts. I could be right and i could be wrong. I just stated some of the facts and its up to you to make the conclusion, just a point to consider in coming to a decision search your mind and heart for the true question because an answer could never be formulated if the question is never clear and stated as a question.

nakaw lang po!

2008-07-21T22:48:00.000+08:00

ito e ninakaw ko sa blog ni Rhodey sa coffee break... hahaha ewan ko ba kung saan ny nakuha eto, e ang cute! ninakaw ko nalang hahaha

o di ba cute nya? gusto mo ring nakawin? paalam ka muna hahahaha

after...

2008-07-21T20:39:00.000+08:00

its been a few weeks since i finally accepted i have a broken heart and healed it! I had been doing great and i love the feeling of being free, of being someone you were once!

The carefree days is once more in my arms without regrets and burdens that usually been in my heart for several years, well i thought it was the end of the world, but i was a fool to think it that way and today i am very glad the war is finally over and I stand victorious from all the odds!

Yabang ko no? haha parang walang nangyari pero wag ka! isa naman talaga akong iyaking bata na walang ginawa sa nakaraang limang taon nang aking buhay kundi magmukmok at umiyak at nagmukhang tanga! nakakainis kunng isipin pero nangyari na at lumipas kayat wala na tayong magagawa sabi nga nila, "There's nothing left to do but to move on after a fall".

Hindi naman talaga masama ang umibig at mabigo pero part na ito nang life nang buhay upang matuto at maging matatag! sana nga lang naisip ko na ang lahat nang ito noon pa, pero wala akong pinangsisihan lahat nang dumating at lumipas ay parte pa rin nang buhay at kelangang tangapin!

I miss the feelings of being free, to be able to walk in the streets again with your head up, because others may not know it but deep in your heart you know you won a battle and you stand victorious!

coca cola!

2008-07-19T06:39:00.000+08:00

well i drink coffee a lot, but whenever steaming coffee is out of my reach i go for a much much available drink love by most Filipino.

I found this commercial and just love how they show case one distinct Filipino trait "mapagbigay".

My killer Habit!

2008-07-10T21:53:00.000+08:00

Smoking can kill, I know that you know and we all know that this is true!

Unfortunately there are things that are hard to forget, and definitely smoking is one of them. I tried quitting several times but i just can't resist! I know it's just self discipline, but its not as easy saying it! But i am still trying to find ways to forget this killer habit!

Just another Question!

2008-07-09T06:34:00.000+08:00

I was just wondering what if your ex ask you these? what will you say?

1. Why did you let me go?

2. I still love you

3. When did we last talk?

4. Will you go out with me?

5. Hey, can i give you a ride?

6. I cannot keep my promise to you.

7. My friends say we don't look good together..

8. You have changed.

9. Can we get back together?

10. Oh, I know what this is all about. You found someone else.

11. Don't you realize? You are the one who hurt me!

12. how can u forget our memories??

13. I will always love you.

wisdom!

2008-07-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

well i think i know the real meaning and essence of the words, how about you?

Great words...

2008-07-04T20:32:00.000+08:00

Many people will walk in and out of your life,
But only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
To handle yourself, use your head;
To handle others, use your heart.

Anger is only one letter short of danger.
If someone betrays you once, it is his fault;
If he betrays you twice, it is your fault.

Great minds discuss ideas;
Average minds discuss events;
Small minds discuss people.

He who loses money, loses much;
He, who loses a friend, loses much more;
He, who loses faith, loses all.

Beautiful young people are accidents of nature,
But beautiful old people are works of art.
Learn from the mistakes of others.
You can't live long enough to make them all yourself.

Friends, you and me....
You brought another friend....
And then there were 3....
We started our group....

Our circle of friends....
And like that circle....
There is no beginning or end....

Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is mystery.
Today is a gift.

just a QUESTION!

2008-07-03T14:13:00.001+08:00

I think i finally found and healed my broken heart! My heart is peace and my mind is no more troubled.

The only question is when will the water be once again distured?

And now that i think i finally found Peace and Healed my broken heart what will become of my blog?

I created it to help me find and heal my Broken Heart and now that i did all of those what should be the purpose of this blog now?

I dont want to loose it just like that, and abandon it because it already served its purpose, but what should i do?

That is one hell of a question i am comfronted with!

Any help? a suggestion maybe? I need Help again!

flame in my heart!

2008-07-03T13:43:00.000+08:00

For so long the flame in my heart is just a flicker, so small that it is just enough to warm my lonely heart and thats what it only do, warm it and nothing more.

I thought that would be alright, but then i just felt something is lacking, i tried to find it and the flame started to become steady, now it not only warms my heart but give light to it too.

Day after day the desire to find what i am looking is growing more and more intense and as i approach the end of my journey the flame in my heart started to rise!

Now , i think i finally found what i am looking for, I am now feeling peace in my heart and the flame that only good at warming is now a beam of warmth and light that not only guides me but allows me to see far beyond and makes me ready for the future!

I only hope i will be able to maintain the flame to guide and show me the way as i journey to LIFE!

the drinks of your life!

2008-06-28T19:20:00.000+08:00

grabbed from

MENstream
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i think i'm in between the second and the fourth drink, i dont know about you, but i absolutely hope not to have the fourth one!

Just another song!

2008-06-27T21:16:00.000+08:00

its the lover not the love who broke your heart!

Do not blame love, just you making wrong choice in loving! Accept you made a mistake and go on living!

I know its hard i had been there, but there are thousand and one ways to heal a broken heart, just don't be stupid in doing the same mistakes!

GIFT!

2008-06-27T20:35:00.000+08:00

Yesterday is a history, Tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift!

thats why it is called "PRESENT". How we accept the present that makes it good or bad!

Well i had my share of worrying too much of what happened, lingered too much of the past and nothing changed!

Accepting the present would lighten your burden and let history teach you, let the present guide you for the gift that tomorrow brings and enjoy the best of life as tomorrow unpack its mystery in your hands!

Am i making sense?

hahaha!

Im drinking, AGAIN!

2008-06-25T20:45:00.000+08:00

yes i am drinking again! and its good news, I am doing it just for fun and to socialize! I do no longer drink to drown the pain in my heart, and i do no longer drink to forget!

I drink because there is a party! Now i know how to control my self!

I dont know if i am completely free from my broken heart, but i am definitely gaining self control and i love the feeling of having control!

tag from a friend

2008-06-25T20:26:00.000+08:00

got this tag from Marvz 18!

The Flame of Friendship.

A symbol of spirit of unity.
The burning icon of love.
Undying picture of hope.
The hot symbol of oneness.
The Flame of Friendship.
And now it's your turn to flame yourself!
Meet new friends.
Discover friendship.
Make bonds.

Copy this post starting from the PICTURE ABOVE to the end and

add your blog on the list below.

Let's start FLAMING!

>----------------------------------------------------------<

People Who Accepted The Flame of Friendship

>----------------------------------------------------------<

1. Tiklaton: We are the witness 2. Janeth Vicy's Life Journey 3. My Precious 4. Jean's Live it Up... 5. Sharz - Pangit's Journey In The States 6. JAM-Life:Thoughts & Inspirations 7. Filipino love stories 8. A Mom's Note 9. Tasteful Voyage10. Twerlermz Blog 11. Cheerful's Journey 12.Marvz18 13. Terrence - My Broken Heart 14. your next

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I am tagging all my contacts! hehehehe

to the gym!

2008-06-24T20:15:00.000+08:00

Wow! i gained weight! and i just notice it! I shifted all my attention to my broken heart and forgot everything else and now my abs turned to tabs hahaha!

I need exercise, i need to work out!

I need to go to the gym!

A better tomorrow!

2008-06-23T06:59:00.000+08:00

for so long sleepless nights haunted me, memories of the past making me awake all night, thinking of everything yet staring to nothing!

Yeah i am getting nuts but then suddenly, sleep begin to caress me, making me sleep like a baby, worries started to leave me and with better sleep i am now getting a better view of the future, and i love it!

the future might not always turn to what we want it, but to have a better perception of it makes us more willing to wake up and embrace what tomorrow offer us!

shrugging off the memories of the past is not easy but chose a memory that would make you step further is wiser than choosing a memory that would make you fall and never want to stand, and make you a loser forever, its not easy but there are hundreds of ways if you really want it! I learned that the hard way, But i am happy about it and i hope the future offers more than what i expected!

I had my own bruises and cuts as i fought my war, I have not won it but i learned from it and it gave me strength and determination to live and go on living!

How i did it? I dont know, i just choose a better memory, the one that makes my heart yearn for the future and not embrace those painful memory that only cause me pain!

And i think that helped me! I hope that will help you too if your heart was once broken!

Blend in!

2008-06-21T20:19:00.000+08:00

Theres a new world thats waiting for you!
thats all right you know what to do!

I just love this commercial, says a lot!
Aliens around us, how we blend?
thats for us to find out!

sweets for me!

2008-06-21T19:52:00.000+08:00

i just had enough of bitter tasting desserts and shifted my attention to some sweets!

I just hope i will be accustomed to the sweet taste and forget the bitterness in my heart!

You! My Blog! My Therapy!

2008-06-20T07:03:00.000+08:00

I am broken hearted I know that is a fact, but i am trying to forget, to heal it, and be free from the binds of loneliness!

Blogging helped me a lot, It became my therapy, It helped me face the reality that i am broken hearted and i have to accept it.

Blogging help me remember i am trying to heal myself and whenever i am confronted with the memories of the past i just face my computer and describe what i feel and share it to you!

I am not yet completely healed, I am still in the first phase of healing and i don't know if i will be able to heal myself, but what is important is i had the initiative to start and try to heal myself!

And I am happy that most of you say everything will pass and everything will be all right! I needed all the encouragement i need to go on and not abandon this fight.

You! My Blog! My Therapy!

Thank you!

Unexpected stop: angel sleeping!

2008-06-19T19:23:00.000+08:00

how i wish i would be able to sleep like this baby, peacefully and with a smile!

For so long sleeping is always a problem to me, the long night is always filled with nightmare, with thoughts and memories painful and joyful alike always make me awake all night!

I want to move on, I want my heart to forget, but every time i close my eyes the memories just keep pouring in and i am left sleepless and hurt again!

I don't know why i am so sentimental and i don't know why i am still clinging to the past, I know it had been so long, I need to step forward but i am just so stupid that i cant lift my foot to take that one step forward!

I want to focus my attention to the future but i just don't know how to envision it.

I want to open my heart for another love, but i just don't know how to free it first from the bind of the past!

Saying the words to forget is easy but doing it is so hard, but then i am happy that at least i am trying to forget and no longer linger to the memories of the past!

I hope i just need more time to forget! as most of you tell time heals, and i look forward when that time comes when i am free and ready to fall in love again!

First stop: Able to admire the views

2008-06-17T22:51:00.000+08:00

i have never seen the sunset so beautiful. I know i stayed in my room for so long and imprisoned myself in its four corners, drowned myself with alcohol and had never given myself a chance to look and admire the things i should see!

Mind over Heart!

2008-06-17T10:10:00.000+08:00

My mind is finally taking over, for so long i let my heart rule my world and did all what my heart told me! But unfortunately my world started to fall apart and now i have to pick up the pieces and start all over again!

I dont blame my heart for its stupidity for it is I who allowed it to rule my world, and followed its decision though my mind is clearly trying to stop and make me take a detour to see whats going on.

Everything had been done, and now is the time to pick up the pieces, allow my mind to rule over my heart once again and restore the balance and hope everything will turn out right!

A long journey home!

2008-06-16T21:15:00.000+08:00

I know what your thinking, a very long road but this is my choice, to travel the long road in my quest to heal my broken heart.

I now have a purpose and a direction, and thats what i need, and if ever i will be able to reach the end of my journey is yet to be seen, for i am just still beginning to tread this long road and i hope it will lead me home and heal my broken heart in the process of my journey.

A roller coaster ride

2008-06-15T19:43:00.000+08:00

Sure it is fun to have a roller coaster ride, it give you the thrills and excitement, because you know the ride will soon stop and you will soon have your feet back on the solid ground, you have the choice to do it again or never to set foot in it ever!

But sure it is no fun at all if your life is a roller coaster ride, you don't know when will it stop and you have no choice but to ride it till it stops going around!

On my Own!

2008-06-13T23:50:00.000+08:00

in times when we are down and low, we have to find something that would help us take another step forward!

On my own

2008-06-13T07:44:00.000+08:00

I just love this song!

I'm wiser now
I'm not the foolish boy you used to know
So long ago
I'm stronger now
I've learned from my mistakes which way to go
And I should know
I put myself aside to do it your way
But now I need to do it all alone

And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'll keep it real you know
Time for me to do it on my own
Yeah yeah, mmm, yeah yeah

It's over now
I can't go back to living through your eyes
Too many lines
And if you don't know by now
I can't go back to being someone else
Not anymore
I never had a chance to do things my way
So now it's time for me to take control

And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'm gonna keep it real you know
Time for me to do it

Oh I start again go back to one
I'm running things my way
Can't stop me now, I've just begun
Don't even think about it
There ain't no way about it
I'm taking names, the ones of mine
Yes I'm gonna take my turn
It's time for me to finally stand alone, stand alone

I am not afraid to try it on my own
And I don't care if I'm right or wrong
I'll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I'm gonna keep it real you know
It's time for me to do it
See I'm not afraid

cruising!

2008-06-11T20:39:00.000+08:00

I just enjoyed the cloud formation!

under construction!

2008-06-11T20:31:00.001+08:00

Caution: My Heart under Renovation!

I hope the renovation would soon be over!

Just cruising!

2008-06-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

I don't know what came to me, i just started driving along the south super highway and just took snapshots along the way!

Waste of time? not exactly! i just enjoyed the view from the window of my car!

Thank goodness! there was no traffic hehehe!

i am wiser now!

2008-06-09T20:30:00.000+08:00

I am again standing in another fork road in my journey to life. I do not have any idea where this two separate roads will bring me, but i can not stand here all my life trying to figure out what they offer! I have to choose a path and take another step forward.

Its hard to choose especially if you do not have any idea where the road you choose will lead you, but as they always say, you always have to move forward though your choice is not as good as you wished it will be, you definitely have to make a choice.

The last time i encountered a fork road i made a mistake and threaded a less traveled road, now i think i have am a little more wiser than i was before and take the road more travelers choose.

My previous journey was not as good as i had expected, but it took me this far, i know i learned some lessons in it though i am yet stubborn to accept the lessons i learned from it, i might be able to use some of those lessons in this another journey.

Our journey make us wiser each time, and become more aware of things as they happen, and only when we accept and learn from them that we will be able to defend ourselves in a much similar situation.

The journey is not easy but it will not be very hard if we know what to do, I just hope today as i take my first step, I will be more productive and much more wiser in facing all the obstacle that the road to life will throw.

my heart for sale!

2008-06-08T20:28:00.000+08:00

Who wants to buy my heart?!.
im having it 4 sale..
though its only 2nd hand,
still it functions well..
cause once i sold it whole
it was returned to me into pieces.

but now i had it all repaired
so now im back in my business.
who wants to buy my heart?
satisfaction guaranteed.
it has free service charge
and a lifetime warranty.
so if your asking 4 d price
well your in a bargain.

it only costs your
LOVE..

I gave my heart away!

2008-06-08T08:23:00.000+08:00

This is me, definitely tore my chest open and offered my heart to the woman of my dreams.

Unfortunately she did not accepted my offering and now i could no longer put my heart back.

The wound is still fresh and my heart is still in my hands waiting for her to come back and caress it and to heal my wound!

I know her coming back is just a dream, for i know she had her own dream and she found it in the arms of another man. I know i have to accept my defeat but i just don't know how to start!

I had tried a hundred and one times to forget her, but i was just too stubborn to give up. I love her so much that i don't know how to forget her.

You might say , i am stupid for clinging on for so long.

You might despise me for committing the same mistake.

You might even hate me for being stubborn.

But what should i do?

It is easy to say forget her, but do you have a way how?

Do you have any potion that erases memories and pains?

Would it be right if i love someone else again though i know my heart is still chained to her?

Is it alright to offer my heart once more to someone?

Cheers!...

2008-06-04T21:31:00.000+08:00

for the past weeks alcohol had been one of my constant companion!
Its easy to be with if you are broken hearted!

it do not ask questions you dont want to answer!
it numbs your heart and feel nothing!
it makes you sleep soundly!
it makes you forget!

There is only "ONE" thing i don't like about it!

"HEADACHES" in the morning!

Now looking back "AGAIN". I know what i did was wrong! but the temptation that alcoholic drinks offer to people who wish to forget is too strong that a human body couldn't resist!

Alcohol make a person forget for a moment! the feeling of numbness is a sensation a man in pain need!

Alcohol becomes his anesthesia to feel numb, to feel no pain!

But just as local anesthesia does, it only holds the pain for a certain period of time!

And again! the pain just comes back!

too bad.....

back to reality....

but never back for good....

cars!

2008-06-01T07:03:00.000+08:00

choices!

2008-05-27T21:09:00.000+08:00

for the past few days i had been very busy feeding my broken heart with painful memories, and i know i cant live like that, i need to move on, i need to do something to forget!

I need to switch my attention, i need to make myself preoccupied and make my heart forget!

there are times i wanted to drown myself with wine, to make my heart immuned with pain, but that would only destroy me more, i need to do something productive.

something i would be proud of someday!

Sometimes, i want to drown myself with work, but the more i tire my mind with the things i do , the more my heart remember her!

She introduced me to accounting, she love numbers, i love literature.

and now i learned to love numbers, i learned she hated literature!

i have to get out! live like life is wonderful, I need to capture moments that make me smile, in that way i hope, someday somewhere i will find another love, another life!

i hope...

.....

the choice i made is right!

at last!

Memories

2008-05-27T20:25:00.000+08:00

Time and I!

2008-05-25T17:23:00.000+08:00

Tick! tock! Tick! tock!

time is running out!

tick! tock! tick! tock!

start living!

or be left out!

Tick! tock! Tick! tock!

Alone!

2008-05-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

How long is Forever?

2008-05-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

five years! five long years and still the pain was as unbearable as it was first inflicted in my heart
five years ago!

I tried all the things i should and must do in order to forget and ignore the pain! But the pain just don't go away! and its making me crazy!

They say the mind was placed higher than the heart in order to rule over it! but why does my heart rule over my mind?

My mind says forget her! and live your life but why can't i go on? I am going in circles, I thought i had forgotten her, I thought i started living but then, I was wrong, I do still love her, I still treasure her in my heart!

I want to forget, but my heart says only her name! I want to live but i cant live with out her!
I don't know what to do!

Five long years! but still my stupid heart longs for her, calls her name and simply don't want to forget!

I can't do anything but shed tears as i let my heart go on to its stupidity! I cry and thats what i always do!

When will i win over this battle? Will i wait for another lifetime? I know is no longer normal! I know i have to live, I know i have to move on! But how?....

Is forever a very long wait?

.....

I need to know! I need to understand!

.....

But how?

is there a reasons to smile?

2008-05-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

Some say laughter is the best medicine, a therapy that simply cure a broken heart! but then on second thought how would you be able to laugh or to smile if you are broken hearted?

How could you smile if your in pain? How can laughter lift up your spirit and set your soul soaring up into the heavens if drops of blood rush out of your heart in its every move?

I dont know how could a smile or laughter would help someone in deep pain, how this simple movement of face muscles relieve the pain from the heart.

Do we consider smile a therapy for a broken heart because when we smile the world smile with us? but when we cry, we cry alone?

Is smile or laughter just another fake medicine for broken hearts?

I am lost! enlighten me! help me find a real medicine for my broken heart!

We can fix broken hearts!

2008-05-19T20:39:00.000+08:00

For too long i hid my broken heart!
Afraid that others might not understand my flight,
I hide everyday through my mask
and succeeded in fooling them that i am alright!

Day in and out i took my chance!
thought that everything will turn out right!
Unfortunately the wound never stopped bleeding!
and my body started falling!

I never understood the reason why!
I kept my broken heart out of sight!
Because i am a man I have to fight!
Be like a knight, that shows no fright!

But when i am alone the pain seeps in!
and the gallant knight nowhere to be seen!
Only a child in tears and pain!
In search for a cure, for a heartache's pain!

I searched all places for clues and reasons!
but found nothing just disappointment and pain!
I searched for help and there it was!
The cure i was searching was hidden in my own heart!

Nature trip!

2008-05-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

A friend invited me for a nature trip in Quezon province and because i have no idea of the place i agreed to his idea. I badly needed a change of scenery and i thought this is my chance.

I am not a very good photographer, I just would like to share some.

A cotton tree proudly show off what he got!

the luxury of living with wheels hahaha

beetle nut ready for harvesting!

the country side and its magnificence!

passed this hut! just got seconds to click the shutter and very glad of the outcome!

A closer look!

The change of scenery was good and it sure gave me a beautiful memory.

My Mask!

2008-05-09T22:07:00.000+08:00

I had been wearing different kind of mask for the a long time! Mask that simply cover and disguise the true me, and the mask i choose to use today is "MY SMILE".

I don't really have any idea why there is a need for me to use one, only a strong feeling urges me to use it for cover and for disguise .

I don't know why i am wearing it, and i don't have an idea when will i stop using it, is it because i want to deceive them? or i just want to deceive myself?

Everyday as i go to work, as i pass by people who know, love and hate me sometimes, i carefully choose a mask that would fit me, a mask that would hide the true feelings, and emotions i have within, and i always go out triumphantly deceiving them, but i never succeeded deceiving myself!

I don't know how i do it but every time an occasion calls for it, my mind is always ready to provide a good mask that fits and me help me blend in.

I don't know my real purpose in using my mask, but the need to use it always come in unexpected.

I want to stop using it and throw out my mask for good, but how? I don't have an idea!

How about you, are you also using your mask?

What are your reasons, are they clear?

Help me! Help yourself! Is there really a need for a mask?

Just another day at work!

2008-05-04T08:45:00.000+08:00

Paper works and other documents had been constantly pilling up in my table for the past week. and the result? cluttered and unorganized work station, this seems to be the view in my office since last week, papers, receipts, memo, and other documents for review and checking seems to be pouring in and i cant catch up!

The only resort? work twelve hours a day, and bring work in my apartment for the week end!

Working late and bringing work home is not funny, especially if you want to live a normal life, but then you have to work to live, life in the city is not that cheap, you have to pay bills, and sometimes there are needs and wants that always finds its way to you.

Well i am not complaining, I love my Job and plan to stick with it for long time. The work you do even tough give you the sense of who you are and definitely define you as an individual.

And i am not planning to have a cluttered and unorganized table for a long time, few more days and i know i will be back on track and this clutter will soon be a pile of organized thoughts and a neat pile of job well done.

the reflection on the mirror

2008-04-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

my magical mirror

I accidentally glanced the mirror hanging at the end of the corridor as i was preparing my dinner today and i thought i saw someone else.

This is not one of those ghost stories you heard but its true, i had living been alone in my apartment for almost five years now though occasionally Aling Tuning come in to help me with my laundry, and this is the first time the mirror reflected someone else.

The mirror was one of my families oldest collection of antiques, and had been in my room back in the province since i was a child, the mirror practically saw me grow into a man, and saw me in my good and bad times.

My mother sent the mirror when i finally decided to settle down in this apartment, and for almost five years now it had been hanging there untouched and unused only on several occasions when i took a second look on my physical appearance before i go to the office.

I was a little bit shaken and confused when this happened, i don't know if this is just a fragment of my imagination, simply my eyes working its tricks on me or my mind showing my desire to be the best i was before, or i have a magical mirror. (now thats a real nonsense i guess)

I am still trying to recover from a phase of my life that made me to what i am today, but i desire to be who I was and i believe my mind and my eyes are teaming up to focus on that goal.

The image i saw was young, smiling, full of hope and happiness. That image was me, six years ago.

I had been dreaming to be the man i was before, and had been trying to heal myself from the devastating event that ruined the foundation i build i thought was strong, and now as i grow older this desire is growing more and more stronger and i hope this event will help me focus and start truly living and not just merely existing.

I want to thank the mirror for giving me hope and for reminding me of the man i was before and my mind and eyes for teaming up in showing the real me.

Few more days and probably the foundations of my life will be soon rebuild and tower amongst those that started living.

On Saying "thank You"

2008-04-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

I was never a good speaker, I have many things in mind but i am just afraid to open up, i don't know how or why but every time i open my mouth to speak the words just flew away and i am left speechless, some of my friends always urge me to be heard but then i stumble with my words and i am always left with a heavy heart for not able to express myself.

I can easily open up when writing, and my journal is full of ideas that i know are relevant but just don't have the nerve to speak up and share them and i am very disappointed with it .

I am to my friends mister shy guy, and to those who do not know me "MR. SUPLADO" and i am not very happy about it.

I am thinking maybe the real reason why i opened this account is for me to be heard, the need to communicate that i am not capable in doing through speech and trying to do it in a different method, through writing.

A simple thank you sometimes could not even pass through my lips as if a lump is always blocking my throat and i resort to nodding and with a little shy smile to show my sincerest appreciation.

I know i can always smile and nod as a sign of appreciation to my friends, but those who do not know me tend to think i am one of those uncivilized mammals that do not know how to say thank you!

And i am very sorry about it, i call for your understanding until i find a way to overcome this unpleasant behavior!